As sad as it sounds, not having diso around is making it harder to cope with shit

I know I've never exactly been not depressed, but i've been spending whole days in bed lately. It was easier when I had people to talk to. ;-;

going on 15 months of whatever the fuck the fibro-RA-lupus-whatever the fuck pain condition it is now.

same
my life is a trainwreck that you guys made tolerable

Aww! I miss having diso around too. Even if we didn't post that much it was still nice to see what everyone was up to.

sometimes i get the urge to look up if PG ever managed to quit the PB&vodka. Charles ever found a babyless mama, or FD's butt ever gained sentience, but if Dark Souls 3 taught me one thing, it's some questions are best left unanswered (though i did check a few times to make sure Pyce didn't commit suicide (i couldn't find anything, so i think he's okay))

fucking deserters

dark souls 3 taught me nothing matters except running at things and hitting them with a greatsword

I still type the old address in my bar.
I come here every day to see if someone has posted tbh. If people post I will reply. <3

pyce is a shaolin monk now

sweet does he know karate yet

why am i still alive

let's keep diso alive lol

I will likely be dead within the next few months.

how you holding up bud

pretty bad, but nobody gives a shit

I know it's easy to think that, but I'm sure there are plenty of people who care about you. If you're having trouble reaching out to people, there are services you can utilize, such as help lines and therapists. https://www.betterhelp.com is just one of many places that can help you. Life is worth living, Ryuhi, and the world would be less awesome without you.

its really not, and the world would only be missing one person for people to use to their own ends. I discuss it in detail a lot with my therapist, but all i see anymore is the next attack waiting to happen. After having attacks for this long in my life, they're winning. I cant cope anymore.

Ryuhi wrote:its really not, and the world would only be missing one person for people to use to their own ends.

I put hundreds of hours into making voxels for you. You're the only person I seem to have had any actual conversations with, other than my mom, for the past year.

thats true, you've been a great friend. Your voxels are actually the most complimented part of my mod when I talk to people about it, so I'm always plugging you for it

I think the bulk of it is that I spend 90% of my social interactions involving people asking/demanding shit of me. My family especially. My therapist says I'm far too critical of myself, but its not really much of a surprise why. I'll go for months no hearing from people until something needed from me, in addition to the whole my job being a servant and shit. I'm honestly considering going on disability at this point with how much its been affecting my life.

Fun is much less describable. I don't care about graphics if I'm not having fun. It was nice having a purpose, so don't hesitate to ask for more.

I honestly never figured out how to start a conversation, so needing something becomes an icebreaker. If I ever did that, it's because I was already looking for an excuse to talk.

Trying to get disability has been a long, humiliating process, but I mean...the system fucks the poor hard in every aspect of life, then takes your tax money to "subsidize" "job-creators," so I say fuck 'em and get disability if you can. You're not your job. We can make stuff.

to be honest you get a decent amount of people admiring your work, unfortunately some of it tends to be people for pining for brutal doom stuff but thats kinda something i'm seeing we all have to deal with

Don't be afraid to work on projects of your own volition, people dig it.

I am afraid of it, unfortunately.

no posts since january. i miss my family.

How bout the Slack?